Why bother?

Because work is driving me up the wall. I'm fed up of being constantly told what to do without making any decisions myself. And that won't change here. That's not the company's fault: it's an architectural practise and I'm neither an architect nor am I particularly interested in learning anymore in this field. I used to enjoy working here but for all the wrong reasons. I could get away with doing what I wanted, I liked doing all the 3d stuff, but I realise now that this is was in the main fruitless and I feel like I have wasted 5 precious years. Then again, maybe I needed the time to realise that I need to grow up.

I'm ready now. I want to be a healthy tree that bears good fruit. I've got this idea and I think it's a good one. Lord, help me see it through to completion. Help me be self-employed by the summer.